Complicated... maybe?

Sometimes I wonder why life is the way it is... sounds veryyy familiar. I think all of my blogs are starting to sound very monotonous. So I think more than anything else this has just become a vent of my emotions and a blog for my thoughts just trying to figure out things but for the world to see kinda. At times I kinda want people to find this blog. But it's sort of silly because I really don't want people to know. I guess that's why I've kept this sort of anonymous but at the same time it is on Facebook so if anyone is REALLY interested in finding out.. it's not too hard to do so.

I've sort of neglected this blog over the past little while because of school and because of well.. other things. I guess the other things category would be the reason why I've been sort of wanting to blog at times. Not really knowing how someone feels about you is sort of worrying. Is it irresponsible to sort of put things on hold and let things come as they do? I don't know people keep telling me that it is. Not really giving answers to people would be frustrating at times but then again who knows what's really going on. Waiting is another interesting thing, sometimes you wonder how long you should wait... Other times it builds patience and love over time. Personally I'm not too sure if there's a suggested waiting time. I guess it depends on how you feel about the situation. Case by case sort of thing. As for me I'm not really sure.. I suppose I'll wait but I might just be setting myself up for nothing. It's a risk I'm gonna take I guess. The best things in life are worth waiting for, I just hope I'm waiting for something rather than nothing...

Don't you wish you could have the power to figure out things without having to go through problems and trials? I guess not having problems and trials would make life too easy... Hurt and pain are sort of required for happiness and love to blossom even greater. I guess in these times we just need to have the faith to say, it's in your hands and all I can do is have a positive attitude about the situation. Whatever may happen, I just want to be happy. In the end I suppose that's all one could ask for.

On another note I've found this quote I really like that has probably floated around a bit but I just wanted to share it with you all... whoever may be following this.. Enjoy!

"The best thing in life is finding someone who knows all of your flaws, mistakes, and weaknesses and still thinks you're completely amazing"

KISS...?

I think for the most part my life is in order... It's just I have a few loose ends that I need to fix up and make better I suppose. But until that time.. I'm happy.

KISS - Keep It Simple Stupid

Sometimes things get complicated and messy when we over think things. So all we gotta do is remember to KISS. I didn't really do that when I let emotions get in the way of things before, and now things are a mess with a certain friend. I'm gonna try to restrain myself because looking back things have just changed for me. I really was a jerk and I totally shouldn't have said what I said but I did... I can't change that. All I can do is remember to always KISS. I guess I gotta have faith and confidence. Things I'm always working on... but one step at a time... Life isn't a sprint but a marathon, just take it one step at a time.

Awesome day

So it was a pretty amazing day today... well from my perspective. The day started off really well.. I was able to get a lot accomplished. I felt very productive in spite of being somewhat rushed. I was able to celebrate my friend's birthday as we went and did all sorts of random things. We went and did a scavenger hunt around main street Unionville, I ended up learning a lot about her and different things I like about her.

I'm not too sure how she feels about me... I never really thought that I would be into someone so quickly but I really feel like I was fated to meet her. Like everything that I've set for my idea girlfriend/wife things I never really thought I could find in someone I have and more... But... I don't know.. it's like I barely had the time to know her. But at the same time I feel like these past few weeks have gone by super fast.. in a way.. it almost feels like I've known her for years. You ever get that feeling that no matter what happens during the day, things will just be better if you get to see her. I don't know.. I get that feeling maybe I'm a hopeless romantic. who knows...

So after we did the scavenger hunt we drove around looking for a good Korean restaurant, we ended up finding an average place it was pretty decent. We then went back to her house to have cake with some other friends, it was fun just to hang out and sing... even though I'm not the greatest singer. Actually pretty much the worst. It was fun none the less. We went to school where we had this interesting hike in the dark, I can say of all the times I walked down that trail, that was the most fun I had. It felt like an adventure. Then we finally got to go to Menchies! It was pretty good but it's no Yogurtland, I think it's pretty good, I can see my self going back a lot. All in all it was a really awesome day. It wasn't the first and it hopefully won't be the last.

Maybe I'll gather the courage to tell her how I feel, although I'm pretty sure it's almost blatantly obvious. But for now I'm just gonna enjoy the ride and take things as they come. I sure hope she likes me... Haha.. I feel like a school boy in love... I am a school boy in love... haha.. =P

Feelings

Sometimes you don't really know how to deal with a situation because your emotions are involved and they make highly reasonable individuals do highly illogical things. Feelings always complicate things. Feelings make people lose sleep, weight, and for no rational reason follow their heart when their mind knows the dangers that lie ahead.

It seems like my life is a continual loop of nice guys finish last. I wonder why it is that I can just click with anyone but there's never any attraction towards me. What is it that causes one individual to become attracted to another individual? Why does it happen one way sometimes and two ways other times? Right now I'm sort of in a situation where there's someone I like, but she doesn't know it. I know what you're gonna say how will she know if you don't tell her?
Well she's not interested in me, she's never seen me in that light before... Maybe I'm starting to feel as if I can't be loved and that my lot in life is to be alone. Maybe it's Karma for what I did to my ex. There are too many situations that I don't want to think about but I know I will. Can someone give me answers?

So... what do I do?

So right now I'm in a situation where... well I don't know what to do? I guess I'll think about it a bit more.. is it too fast? what if I wait too long? I don't know really.. I'm just confused...