Finding Love and Passions in Life

There's something about life that makes things hard, everyone is searching for happiness and love. The problem is when you think you've found it, it might not be exactly as it seems. Hmm...

I'm not sure really what I want to say right now. I just feel that this is something I should do today because I haven't done it in a while and I really want to make this a more frequent or regular thing, I just get lazy sometimes.

Recently I've decided to be more proactive in my dating life, although I think I need to work a lot on my timing. I've been a bit more open in asking people out on dates and seeking out women that I feel I have a connection with, maybe my shy nature is still a big part of who I am because I am still incredibly afraid to ask the opposite sex on dates. Even if it isn't a huge commitment, it's still one of the scariest things for me to do. I think I'm at an age where I really want to find love, but I think that can be any age. I guess I'm feeling a bit of pressure to find a relationship and eventually get married. There are times when I think is it me? Is there something wrong with me? It gets a little discouraging sometimes. I tell myself I have bad timing when it comes to these things, for the most part I feel I do. It's sort of strange because I keep hearing people say to me "you're such a great person, why are you still single?" and other things that are along those similar lines. Whenever I hear people ask me these things I have a few thoughts that usually cross my mind. The first is usually "No one loves me for who I am", the second is "I'm unattractive to the opposite sex", the third is "I need to change to make myself more attractive". I know these are very destructive thoughts to be having but I guess that's sort of my natural thought process. Whenever I lose confidence in myself, I notice that I am not as passionate about life and I usually don't feel as much love. I feel like there is a direct correlation between my levels of confidence and my ability to be loved as well as my passions in life. I think that being confident about life brings about the ability to be more passionate in all aspects of your life. I've made a goal to find my passions in life, to not be lazy and pursue those passions to the fullest so that I may find fulfillment in life. Doing things for me with the belief that if I do these things then I will be able to have love find me. At least that's what people tell me. I can't say what 2014 will bring me but here's to a great year for everyone.

I might hop on a bit later and throw out a few more notes but I suppose that's all I have for now.

Winter Driving Part 1 - Pick a lane

So just a note to all those of you who drive in Toronto, or anyone who drives in the snow. First of many,

IF you're driving on a road that has 2 lanes going one direction and 2 lanes going another direction, it is NOT okay to drive in the middle the two lanes of your respective direction. There is enough room to drive with 2 cars going either direction side by side in each individual lane. If you don't feel confident driving with another car beside you, slow down. If this still scares you, don't drive. It is not safer to drive in the middle of the road because you end up confusing the respective lanes that people have made driving through the snow before hand. If you aren't sure where your lane is, either drive close to the curb where you can judge your distance away from the curb, OR drive with enough space between you and the curb to fit another car in between.

Maybe I'm being a bit hard on lots of drivers out there, but I encountered someone who drove in the middle of 2 lanes for the longest time and would not move from the "path" they decided to take while everyone behind them was driving in 2 separate lanes. I wouldn't have been so annoyed by this person had they been going faster than 20km/h. I ended up passing the person by going half in on coming traffic when the way was clear and left everyone behind me, but seriously. UGH this is gonna be a long winter of bad drivers.

Leave your comments below, I'd love to hear about your thoughts on this.

I'll rant about these things as I see them, I know I will see more!

I am really bad at this.. life business

I always have these fantastic ideas and dreams of doing this or that, but fact of the matter is that I'm lazy. I fall out of the habit of doing things and I just find very little motivation to pick things up again and be diligent. But when I am diligent about doing various things, I really do feel fulfilled, I don't know what it is. I feel that Satan really has this part of my life in his hand. Just trying to keep me from succeeding to the potential I have and am able to achieve. I guess I have been relying on some innate talents and natural born instincts for too many years of my life and I've never really worked hard to achieve anything or develop talents that I have to become better. I've sort of been coasting my whole life, I feel as if it's time for me to finally stop the shenanigans and just make the step up to the next level, to keep progressing and try to improve myself day by day. I know this isn't going to be a day and night transformation but I hope that if I do a little each day I will be able to see those changes over the course of the upcoming year. One of the things I will try to do is to blog at least once a week, hopefully several times a week.

But for now, I should improve on getting more rest, so having said that, it's 4:15 am.. I will sleep now.