How to get over someone?

So I really have this terrible thing with timing in life. I'm always late to the punch, or way too early. I don't know what it is. Right now I'm sort of dealing with rejection of sorts. It sort of goes along with my previous post about finding love. I really am bad at trying to get over someone. So this is always something I'm interested in because I guess so much of my life has been searching for love. Trying to understand attraction between individuals and how all that works with my life. I guess since it's a new year I will be more proactive about my love life and take more initiative like I have been doing during the latter half of the year. I think it's something that's hard for me to do because I have so many reservations and I often leave myself out there way too often in the wrong situation so it takes me a bit to recover. I often find myself being attracted to unavailable girls as well. They usually come from a land far far away, or are emotionally unavailable or some combination of both. I don't know why that is. I guess it might stem from my Wanderlust (The desire to travel the world). There is also a level of my connection with the object of my interest that I just happen to "click" well with those most unavailable to me. Or maybe I just know what I want... do I? If I did I would be more certain of my decisions in life and well yeah. I suppose that this would be a good way for me to try to get over someone. By keeping up with this blog and doing a number of other personal interest things (pursue my photography, develop my craft and creativity). Hmm... Was this a blog about how to get over someone?Or just a rant for me to help me get over someone... In any event I want to just say... Girls are stupid throw rocks at them... haha. The same applies in reverse because guys are stupid, if you throw rocks at us we will have interest in you.

Finding Love and Passions in Life

There's something about life that makes things hard, everyone is searching for happiness and love. The problem is when you think you've found it, it might not be exactly as it seems. Hmm...

I'm not sure really what I want to say right now. I just feel that this is something I should do today because I haven't done it in a while and I really want to make this a more frequent or regular thing, I just get lazy sometimes.

Recently I've decided to be more proactive in my dating life, although I think I need to work a lot on my timing. I've been a bit more open in asking people out on dates and seeking out women that I feel I have a connection with, maybe my shy nature is still a big part of who I am because I am still incredibly afraid to ask the opposite sex on dates. Even if it isn't a huge commitment, it's still one of the scariest things for me to do. I think I'm at an age where I really want to find love, but I think that can be any age. I guess I'm feeling a bit of pressure to find a relationship and eventually get married. There are times when I think is it me? Is there something wrong with me? It gets a little discouraging sometimes. I tell myself I have bad timing when it comes to these things, for the most part I feel I do. It's sort of strange because I keep hearing people say to me "you're such a great person, why are you still single?" and other things that are along those similar lines. Whenever I hear people ask me these things I have a few thoughts that usually cross my mind. The first is usually "No one loves me for who I am", the second is "I'm unattractive to the opposite sex", the third is "I need to change to make myself more attractive". I know these are very destructive thoughts to be having but I guess that's sort of my natural thought process. Whenever I lose confidence in myself, I notice that I am not as passionate about life and I usually don't feel as much love. I feel like there is a direct correlation between my levels of confidence and my ability to be loved as well as my passions in life. I think that being confident about life brings about the ability to be more passionate in all aspects of your life. I've made a goal to find my passions in life, to not be lazy and pursue those passions to the fullest so that I may find fulfillment in life. Doing things for me with the belief that if I do these things then I will be able to have love find me. At least that's what people tell me. I can't say what 2014 will bring me but here's to a great year for everyone.

I might hop on a bit later and throw out a few more notes but I suppose that's all I have for now.

Winter Driving Part 1 - Pick a lane

So just a note to all those of you who drive in Toronto, or anyone who drives in the snow. First of many,

IF you're driving on a road that has 2 lanes going one direction and 2 lanes going another direction, it is NOT okay to drive in the middle the two lanes of your respective direction. There is enough room to drive with 2 cars going either direction side by side in each individual lane. If you don't feel confident driving with another car beside you, slow down. If this still scares you, don't drive. It is not safer to drive in the middle of the road because you end up confusing the respective lanes that people have made driving through the snow before hand. If you aren't sure where your lane is, either drive close to the curb where you can judge your distance away from the curb, OR drive with enough space between you and the curb to fit another car in between.

Maybe I'm being a bit hard on lots of drivers out there, but I encountered someone who drove in the middle of 2 lanes for the longest time and would not move from the "path" they decided to take while everyone behind them was driving in 2 separate lanes. I wouldn't have been so annoyed by this person had they been going faster than 20km/h. I ended up passing the person by going half in on coming traffic when the way was clear and left everyone behind me, but seriously. UGH this is gonna be a long winter of bad drivers.

Leave your comments below, I'd love to hear about your thoughts on this.

I'll rant about these things as I see them, I know I will see more!

I am really bad at this.. life business

I always have these fantastic ideas and dreams of doing this or that, but fact of the matter is that I'm lazy. I fall out of the habit of doing things and I just find very little motivation to pick things up again and be diligent. But when I am diligent about doing various things, I really do feel fulfilled, I don't know what it is. I feel that Satan really has this part of my life in his hand. Just trying to keep me from succeeding to the potential I have and am able to achieve. I guess I have been relying on some innate talents and natural born instincts for too many years of my life and I've never really worked hard to achieve anything or develop talents that I have to become better. I've sort of been coasting my whole life, I feel as if it's time for me to finally stop the shenanigans and just make the step up to the next level, to keep progressing and try to improve myself day by day. I know this isn't going to be a day and night transformation but I hope that if I do a little each day I will be able to see those changes over the course of the upcoming year. One of the things I will try to do is to blog at least once a week, hopefully several times a week.

But for now, I should improve on getting more rest, so having said that, it's 4:15 am.. I will sleep now.

Turbulent Times

Well I'm trying to keep my distance, and you don't really realize how much you miss someone until they're gone from your life. But at the same time you realize how unimportant you were to to them. How this ended up like this I don't know, I guess we weren't meant to be. There can be any number of reasons. Excuses will be excuses. I guess lets see how things turn out... Until then I need to take some time to enjoy life get back to the basics and bring my life back to the way it was before I met you and you became my world... It's funny how much you made me fall in love with you and how quickly you don't care. Did I mean anything to you? I don't know... 

On a lighter note I passed all my classes... so that's a plus.

Too Much Going On

I can't really focus right now. My life is taking interesting turns left and right, I'm sort of just taking things as they come now.

I think I'm gonna just hermit myself for a while..

Post for the sake of posting

I realize I may just be writing to myself at this point as many of my blogs don't really have many followers... I don't think my life would be interesting enough to attract followers. In any case, updates...

Nothing really has changed. My situation is still the situation.. School is coming to a close.. exams are coming up soon.. stress will run high.. so school stress, life stress, hopefully no emotional stress but that's always the case... I think I've fallen for this girl.. as much as I tried not to let myself fall so hard.. it's happened.... now all I can do is wait.. and see... especially since I'm not the only one who's fallen for her.. Jason Mraz has a song that describes my situation right now... "I Won't Give Up"... I just hope it doesn't come to a point where I have no choice but to give up... but anything worth doing should be done with your full effort so... She is definitely someone that I feel is worth it.. despite her flaws.. but I guess... when you like someone enough you're willing to look past all that... I guess only time will tell... I wish I could fast forward life... just one time... would it be worth it?