Much Ado About Nothing

So it feels like the days are being intertwined in a way that I can't really understand how it happened or what makes it so. Every day flows into the next, the weeks pass by quickly, the days are even faster, yet every hour seems slower and slower as the days go by. 

So I don't really know what I'm posting today, but I just had a feeling that I should post. I guess that's why it's much ado about nothing. Not much going on, nothing really surprising in my life. I do feel a lot more alone these days but I guess that's the lack of social interaction with people. Being at home everyday is really tough, I guess I really am what you would call a social creature. I really need to find some outlet to feed my social appetite, I think a lot of it comes down to are my friendships that I do have. Are they really what I had thought they were? Can I rely on them as friends? Or is it I the one that is untrustworthy? I think a lot of the time we point fingers at others but really the one that we should be pointing fingers at is ourselves. I think in my case, I feel it is from other people but I know really the heart of all the problems I face is from myself and no one else. What really needs to change isn't my relationships with my friends but rather my relationship with myself. So the question is where do I start fixing the problems I've created? I guess that's the biggest question. ... where do I go from here...