Issues

It's normal in every person's life to go through challenges, emotional, physical, social, spiritual, or other. I guess this is the time in my life which will be my refiners fire for now. I'm not really sure the frequency of my blogging, but then again I have never really been too frequent with my blogs. I'm just going through some things, of all aspects of my life and I guess I'm just here to say that those expecting more frequent blogs or who are following my random writings, may be in for a bit of a wait. Or maybe not, I think blogging to me is very therapeutic. It's an outlet for me to release some steam or some of the stresses, physical or otherwise from my life and just to be able to sit here and reflect on what's going good in my life and what's going bad. Right now it seems like a lot more bad than good. But, when the world is crashing down on you it always seems that way. Not much you can do about that. I thought I needed someone to talk to but I don't think I do... I know what I need to hear. I'm actually telling myself those exact things. I'm assuming the rest of the population is in a similar boat but we all know what we need to hear when we're going through things. We all know what we need to do to overcome them. Just we don't like to face the realities of things and we try to avoid confrontation. As human individuals we really don't like drama or confrontation. When we lack the proper outlet to release these emotions, these bottled up emotions (emotions are highly volatile, and should be handled with caution), can explode in various forms leading to arguments, broken hearts, physical violence, or worse. 

I've been trying to distract myself with various things but I know that's not the answer. I've tried to fill my life with material goods, but that also has been in vain and has caused me some financial burden. I know these things don't work necessarily and are only a short term fix. But we don't like to do what's hardest to do but we know is a sure resolution for things. We'd like to think we are responsible but for the most part we are irresponsible in the ways we treat what we have stewardship over. Even ourselves. Now I'm not saying all of humanity is screwed in this aspect but for a majority of the population it's true. Or so I'd like to believe, it's more reassuring to know I'm not the only screwed up one in the world (I know that's an exaggeration).

I just need some company right now. Someone to just sit there with me and not say a word but just be there. Not any words of consolation, not any form of distraction but just someone to be there. And maybe a hug, those are always nice. Something about a heartfelt hug that is indescribable in it's healing capabilities. So if anyone out there would like to really find me, to be there for me.. call me. I'll be around trying to do some personal conflict resolution, trying to face up to the things I need to do. Then not run away from it, and just face it and do it.