Decision day

So I guess every so often we need to make decisions that could effect the future of our lives. I guess today might be one such day, in a sense. So over the last little while I've had this girl that I liked on and off for years on my mind. I've always been too afraid to act, too afraid to do anything, but recently I've built up a bit more courage in such matters and I figure what's the worst that can happen with her. She rejects me and we go back to being friends. At least I'll know where I stand with her and if I even have a chance. If I don't then I move on and then I don't need to worry too much about it. So I guess you can say today would be a short term turning point of a decision day. I don't know why I chose today but I guess it's because I don't want to wait anymore. Impatience at it's finest, is it the right time? I don't know, I'm always terrible with timing. Things never seem to work out in my favour, but I will do what I choose to do and then take the consequences as they come. Whether they be good or bad, it is not up to me. All I can do at this juncture in time is to let her know how I feel and then see how she reacts.

One reading this might think, why so rash in your decision? I've been thinking about this for a while now and I just feel there is a lot of chemistry, but at the same time I feel there are a lot of uncertain things about this girl. Specifically how she feels towards me. I really have no clue and it's like jumping off a cliff. Once you take the first step there is no turning back. Right now I'm sitting on the theoretical edge of the cliff, gonna take the plunge into the darkness not knowing if there are jagged rocks below or if there is a pristine pool that awaits me below. I know what I want now... but does what I want, want me back? We'll see people... we'll see.